Requiem for a Dream
Vienna, in winter. It will swallow you, Amadeus, and your darkest and most sublime notes will be lodged in its throat. You left nothing, and everything, behind. The mist of limestone will float in the faded light, dust mote ghosts dissolving into morning. The keening of ladies will wane, too, but the emphatic triumph of those who envied you will turn bitter. They will weep for your waltzes like women. There is a river somewhere in the story. Your pristine clarinets, your aching violins, still whisper from her deep.
“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear.” C.S. Lewis
I know what was done to you, I know how hard it is to find your way with these zigzag scars. We were all skewered, scattered, skinned alive, and the worst of it was yours. There are no witnesses that remain, no guardians of that lineage outside of our story. When you flounder, spaceless, faceless in the vineyards and all those orchards of rotted apples and pears, I am standing there like a pylon ghost, marking the ways in which you were erased, the ways you were taken down. None of the letters I wrote on our behalf made a difference to those who had their own version of events, but I was there. I know. I know how you were small and defenseless and just wanted to show her the buried treasure you excavated by trowel and brush. I know how you were born and blamed, because you were made in his image. I know how you wanted to forgive what she could not resolve or keep.
Lorette C. Luzajic is an artist and writer in Toronto, Canada. She is the author of four independently published poetry books, including Aspartame and The Lords of George Street. Her poems have also appeared in hundreds of print and online journals, recently Wild Word, Heart of Flesh, L.A. Cultural Weekly, KYSO Flash, and Indelible. Her artwork and poetry have both appeared in numerous anthologies like Unsheathed (Kingly Street Press, ed. Betsy Mars) and Group of Seven Reimagined (Heritage Books, ed. Karen Schauber). Lorette has been nominated twice each for Best of the Net and the Pushcart Prize. She is the editor of The Ekphrastic Review, an online journal devoted entirely to writing inspired by art. Visit her at www.mixedupmedia.ca.